Not Me

so many mistakes that I have, I never want any of that. I make people around me a lot of disappointed in myself, but it's also not my wish. I can only apologize to him, How-I know it will never be enough to treat his pain. I have repeatedly hurt him, but he still always there for me. I don't know why he still refused to leave despite having repeatedly hurt because of me. may be true I'll never be able to get less patient and very good people like him. I feel guilty because I could not love him back. But I also can't be said of love, if indeed I didn't love him. To this day I haven't even this could make him sick again. can only say sorry ....